I want to see you,Without skin,
Without shields or friends to hide in.
See you like god sees
And know you as the devil does.
Yesterday, I thought I found the seed of your soul
Then it bloomed and
I must admit
The colors popped so violently
They blinded me.
I wanted to take a pedal from your heart
As a keepsake,
But the delicate leaf profaned my grabbing hands.
I want to see you, Jenn,
As you wish you could see yourself
Shed of time.
Your legs so bright
And tummy so pooch-less
And laugh, like bait, for my heart’s shark.
The first time, we passed, unaware of our destiny,
Caught in webs we had yet to weave,
Unaware of the tininess
Of the train track between chicago and Carbondale.
Oblivious to dreams our minds overthought,
We spoke like saints till your boyfriend drove away.
And we wished each other’d stay
But our day was delayed.
Then what, Clow?
How did we fix the universe in which
We had just nearly missed?
We had decided to be stupid
And let our OKness, all up to Cupid
The net was our trap where we snagged true love
And the pain of mediocrity was cured by your love
And the fallacy I lived was made truth by your love
And the way I believed was pure faith in your love
And your love, Jenn, was justice
It made me stronger than I.
And the way that you let me grow so high
I could fly.
I wanted you since before you knew
I wanted to see you
And now I can,
And now I have.
And to see you, as god does,
So warm and new
From the bird view that led me to pray just for you.
You held me and told me you’d wait till I’m through.
And god gave me sight and insight and justice and truth
Cause god gave me the universe
When god gave me you.